Union Booking!

The other day, I was in a union gig. It covers TV, theatrical (movie previews), foreign (!) print, social media/internet, etc. I performed for maybe a whopping half hour.

The last time I had such a gig was in 2012 for Microsoft. I hadn’t traveled overseas in two decades, went to London and saw myself during previews for the Hobbit. That was nuts, like how did I go from Saginaw, MI, wanting to be on the big screen to seeing my face on a big screen overseas?

I never get nervous at auditions anymore. You have to act like you are on the job. I try to be fun, entertain and interact even though I’ve been told not to. It works for me, so to Hell with it. The clients have to sit through so many auditions, actors getting in and out, so who knows how bored they get.

Hopefully, I don’t get cut from the final edit, you never know. Should I not get cut, I plan on getting headshots by solid photographers (I usually take my own), have a few places I want to take classes at, work on getting into voiceover, dedicate myself to being a working actor, produce some sketches, create a work group for some actors where we trade information/creative ideas for us to produce/support each other, and travel. That’s my reward.

I like the directors I’ve met, having a group of CDs who call me in regularly, the crews are always nice, and especially the actors. I’m not a fan of competitiveness. I feel if my career isn’t going as well as someone else’s, I simply haven’t put in the work but I also don’t like to compare. Everyone has a unique path and to be jealous is a denial of your purpose and what you can bring to entertainment. I prefer to be supportive and help someone up with an agency referral when I see their talent and dedication to their career.

On a side note, it hasn’t been easy having a solid group of friends. I have few and hardly ever see anybody. People are busy with their gigs or whatever and I rarely initiate hanging out because it’s tiresome coordinating schedules and dealing with bails. I’ve become comfortable with solitude, having a lot of acquaintances and being alone in public. I like going to the bar to write and am generally a weird situation magnet. One night, a very normal looking guy from England approached me. The conversation went from how I remind him of someone in a TV show to ending about how he identifies with werewolves.

Looking forward to 2020.

Good Year

It hasn’t always been an easy year but I’m going on my fifth commercial shoot this year, a personal best. A spot for Walmart Family Mobile just came out and it was a pleasure “working”, that is, sitting by a pool in the sun all day, getting splashed by water, running off to the side to have a few people reaching into my swimsuit to dry it and my breasts in between takes.

Over the years, I have been wonderfully discouraged, bullied, bailed on, etc., from pursuing acting. When I was a little kid and watched SNL or Monty Python, I thought, “That’s what I want to do, I want to be on TV.”

Meanwhile, some of those mean people have disappeared, lost the sense of purpose for the craft they seemed so self-righteously dedicated to, or stayed at the same level feeling that to do anything bigger is somehow a cop out. Maybe they were afraid of being a tiny fish in a big pond because they already felt small enough as it was.

Anyway, I never thought I’d do commercials and now, I love it. I love the auditions more than theatrical because theatrical was a lot more pressure. You have to impress the CD, the director, the producer(s) and I’ve had some pretty mean experiences. A couple of CDs ripped on my headshot/resume while others said they were great. One CD at a major network kept yelling at me without even watching my performance but stopped once her assistant insisted she watch through the camera. By that point, I didn’t ever want to see her again.

It has been a great learning experience, a pursuit which led me from the Midwest to the East coast then West all by myself. I’m thankful for the wonderful people I’ve met and for my agent who has supported me since 2012.

More goodness on the way.


I love Stockholm and have been going there to visit my significant other. We didn’t go to Skansen this time around but we had Viking and Medieval dinners, went swimming, had a fancy dinner, ate a lot, engaged in much fika, ate some more, etc. etc.

People are generally nice and a little shy, it’s clean there, the water is good. I like the variation in weather, being surrounded by nature, architecture and the feel of Gamla Stan. I love the dim lighting, cobble stone streets, being surrounded by sturdy buildings, history. I love thinking about all the people who have touched the same rocks at the water and how hard life must have been for them, how precious summers must have felt. I love the surprise from water splashing me out of nowhere. I love efficient cities.

My goal is to work overseas, broaden my horizon and put myself out there for as much opportunity as possible.

From Michigan to Chicago, New York to Los Angeles and now travels, it has been a long, not easy but unique trip.

A favorite thing to do is be on the rocks next to the sea, to forget everything and sink into nature.

I want to forget myself. :)

Gamla Stan’s most narrow walkway.

Gamla Stan’s most narrow walkway.

He was so stoked on flicking off a customer.

He was so stoked on flicking off a customer.