Moving On

Long story short, when a relationship ends, I throw out objects, emails, etc., from/related to the person, even including of myself, so I don’t recall that period of my life.

Sometimes, it’s a slow process. Sometimes, immediate and quite aggressive.

There’s one person from many years ago whose videos I keep because they’re too funny and bizarre (in contrast to their in-person mask) to delete. I like to remember how excited I was to get inundated by them while working, how I snuck off to the bathroom to watch and laugh. Fortunately, I’m able to separate their malfeasance from their ability to make me laugh.

Recently, I deleted gigabytes of a text thread spanning maybe two years. I never thought I’d feel comfortable doing it but after revisiting their words, I thought, “Oh, fuck off.”

I’d rather not remember their hypocrisy.

Please, don't get me started
Looking backwards to move on
Strong, yet open-hearted
Accept leaving when leaving's come

God didn't see it coming
Never said I love you, hope you knew
Now my bags are packed and my sails are tacked
And my course is marked by stars

When this cycle ends
Will it start again?
Will we recognize old friends?

I'm on my way
Soon be moving on my way
Leave a little light on
Leave a little light on

I'm on my way
Soon be moving on my way
Leave a little light on
Leave a little light on

Time always unwinding
All these dead lines in my mind
Dreams and seeds we planted
Took for granted, didn't prove

Walking down this road
When my pulse beats slow
Hope to have you close at hand

When this cycle ends
Will it start again?
Will we recognize old friends?

I'm on my way
Soon be moving on my way
Leave a little light on
Leave a little light on

I'm on my way
On my way, on my way, on my way
Leave a light on
Leave a little light on

I'm on my way
Soon be moving on my way
Leave a little light on
Leave a little light on

I'm on my way
On my way, on my way, on my way
Leave a light on
Leave a little light on
Leave a little light on